8am Banana oatmeal “muffin” with a fig and a persimmon
350
The weather was beautiful outside this morning, bidding me a good journey back to school. If you follow my personal blog, I wrote about how I drove by myself for the first time, long distance. Since it rained literally all day yesterday, I was a little worried that driving conditions would be difficult, but luckily it wasn’t.
9am-11:30am Drove back to school! A minor hiccup along the way, but all was well. I came back before the weather got bad so I was really lucky!
11:30am Ferrero Rocher
220
Total: 600 calories
My sister handed me these chocolates before I left as a parting gift since I won’t see her for a whole day and a half. Cute huh? haha. She also had a banana oatmeal muffin with me this morning. This was hers:
:)
It is literally the easiest recipe ever: 1 medium-large banana + 1/2 cup rolled oats + cinnamon.
You put it in a mug or a bowl and microwave it until it becomes firm, or semi-firm. I can’t really place an exact time on it, but you will need at least 2 minutes. After that, check it at 30 second intervals to make sure it doesn’t burn or get too firm. If it’s firm, you should probably eat it before it cools down, because when it cools, it will be ROCK HARD. I’m not even kidding.
Anyway, so this breakfast was a huge deal to me. Usually, on days before I drive back to school, I go all crazy-binge-mode right before I leave. But I contained myself, and the only “extras” I had besides the muffin were two fruits.
I didn’t really plan on eating later during the day after the chocolates. Which is why I ate them. That, and I felt like I ate enough yesterday to last me days..and I don’t really have food lol. Anyway, usually after a drive back from home, I will either 1) binge or 2) not eat for the rest of the day, depending on the circumstances, but typically the latter.
I will binge if my mother packs me food that will spoil quickly. And I usually don’t eat for the rest of the day if I have already binged before leaving home.
Today was just a combination of having eaten a lot yesterday, being tired from driving, having no fresh food, being lazy, and just out of habit, really.
So this entire day, my abs/torso area has been so sore from pilates yesterday! BUT this is a good thing. Okay, honestly, I think I’m even starting to see my muscles form again, around my torso. Even though I barely worked my abs out for more than 1 minute. I think I’m ready to start up pilates/weight training again. The motivation is THERE. I’m really going to work it hard when I get home. In conjunction with proper eating, too… speaking of which, I was thinking about incorporating more chocolate into my diet. Odd, right? Usually when people are “dieting” they TAKE OUT the sweets… in my case, I’m putting it IN.
Sugar is pretty much the root of my binges. But what if I allow myself to have it? Quitting it cold turkey won’t work because that’s just not how I want to live my life. I want to be able to live knowing that I won’t go crazy just by having one piece of chocolate. I want to be able to know that I can safely eat one chocolate bar without eating the whole box.
A couple weeks ago, I started drinking the master cleanse with my meals. It had agave in it, which was roughly 60 calories per tablespoon. I ran out of agave a while ago, and I have been making a modified drink without it (and it works wonders, at least for me). I was thinking maybe I could start doing that, except with chocolate. A chocolate truffle or a chocolate square has roughly 70 calories so it’s not too far off from the agave. I’m thinking of having a piece of chocolate after every meal, with my modified cleanse drink (apple cider vinegar, cayenne, and cinnamon). So it’s sort of like having a mini-dessert with every meal I guess. I’m still thinking about it, and I’m probably going to go for it once I go home. More excuses for me to have chocolate, hah. I think I could take away Tuesday chocolate bar day, though, if I do incorporate it ;) I’m hoping that eventually, I will no longer feel like it’s a “forbidden” food, and so, stop my chocolate binges.
Of course, if I notice that it’s NOT working, I’ll have to stop ASAP or whenever I snap myself out of the sugar coma lol. All in moderation.. right? Stepping stones.
Weight:
AM: 119.0 lbs
PM: 117.4 lbs
Mood: 3
